The Consecrated Podcast

Journal Entry: Living From the Worthiness of Jesus

Welcome to our first ever Journal Entries episode—a new series on The Consecrated Podcast where we invite you into the more personal, raw, and in-process parts of our walk with God. These episodes are straight from our journals and personal time with the Lord. They are less about polished teachings and more about sharing what God is revealing to us in real time. Our hope is that this becomes an invitation to grow together—to wrestle, reflect, and encounter Jesus alongside us.
In this first Journal Entries episode, we talk about what it means to live from the reality of Jesus’ worthiness.
Fedhii shares a personal encounter from his journal where he saw a bustling community of people living with one common intention: to do all things unto Jesus. It was a picture of people whose lives were anchored in the revelation that Jesus is worthy—not just of our worship songs or ministry moments, but of everything.
We talk about how when you truly live from the conviction that Jesus is worthy of it all, everything becomes worship. Washing dishes, going to work, serving people, building, creating—ordinary moments begin to carry eternal significance. Life becomes filled with meaning, purpose, and vibrancy when everything is done unto Him.
Whether your work looks like ministry or something completely outside of it, your life has profound purpose when it is lived for Jesus. He is worthy of every part of our lives.

The Way of Trust

In this episode, we talk about the way of trust through the story of Peter walking on water. Peter was able to do the impossible as long as his eyes were fixed on Jesus—but the moment he shifted his focus to the wind and waves around him, he began to sink.
How often is that true for us? So easily, we become consumed with our emotions, our circumstances, our fears, and our plans for the future. We spiral inward, focusing on ourselves and everything happening around us, while slowly taking our eyes off the One who is holding us.
The Christian walk becomes exhausting when we spend most of our time looking at ourselves instead of looking at Jesus. We were never meant to carry the weight of life in our own strength—we were made to lean on Him.
This episode is a reminder to fix your eyes back on the Lord and trust Him, even when life doesn’t look the way you expected. The invitation remains the same: keep your eyes on Him.

Who Defines You? Part 2

In this episode, we continue the conversation around the question: Who defines you? We explore the reality that identity was never meant to be self-created or determined by the opinions of others. Just as God intentionally designed every fingerprint to be unique, He was even more intentional in forming our inward being. Our personalities, desires, gifts, and distinct characteristics are not accidents—they were crafted by a Creator who knows us completely.
We discuss the picture of the pot and the potter, and how a pot cannot define its own purpose apart from the one who made it. In the same way, we were created to discover who we are through the One who formed us. When we allow God to define us, we find clarity, purpose, and security that cannot be found through self-identification or external validation.
We also unpack a common misconception about following Jesus: that surrendering to Him means losing our individuality. The opposite is true. Jesus does not erase our personalities—He redeems and fills them. In His creative nature, He forms each person with unique expressions, gifts, and characteristics that reflect His glory. The closer we become to Him, the more we discover who we were actually created to be.

Who Defines You? Part 1

In this episode, Fedhii shares a powerful encounter with the Lord that exposed a subtle but significant struggle in his heart: allowing things other than God to define who he is. Whether through accomplishments, failures, gifts, relationships, or the opinions of others, it's easy to build our identity on labels that were never meant to carry that weight.
Together, we explore the question: Who has the right to define us? If we are created beings, can we truly establish our own identity apart from the One who created us? And why do we so often give other people more authority over our identity than God Himself? Through personal reflection and biblical truth, this conversation unpacks how every label apart from Jesus ultimately leaves us unsettled because it was never designed to be our foundation.
At the heart of this episode is a simple but transformative reality: Jesus is the only One who paid the full price for our lives, and therefore He alone has the rightful authority to define who we are. To belong fully to Jesus is to surrender not only our lives to Him, but also our right to label ourselves.

Choose It Until You Believe It

In this episode, we explore how easily our circumstances can shape our perception of who God is in a given season. Biiftuu shares a recent encounter with a friend that brought conviction in real time. Despite walking through financial uncertainty and tight circumstances, they continued to live generously because their lives were built on the belief that God would provide—and they chose to live accordingly.
But what happens when our emotions, circumstances, and personal narratives seem to contradict what God says about Himself? Through personal stories and honest reflection, we discuss the struggle of believing God is Provider when our own lives seem to tell a different story. While we focus specifically on provision, we also acknowledge the many other false beliefs we can carry about God's character.
Together, we unpack the journey of choice—how faith often begins not with feeling, but with deciding to believe what Scripture says is true. We talk about the slow process of repeatedly choosing trust, even when belief feels distant, and how over time those choices begin to shape our hearts. Eventually, what starts as a conscious decision becomes a deeply rooted conviction, where God's truth carries more weight than our emotions or circumstances.
Until belief takes root, we continue making decisions in the direction of Jesus, trusting that our inner world will eventually reflect what we have chosen to believe.

Jesus & Ambition

In this episode, we sit down with Fedhii to talk about Jesus and ambition—starting with the story of the rich young ruler in Mark 10:17-31. Together, we unpack Jesus’ words about how difficult it is for the rich to enter the Kingdom of Heaven, and how wealth itself was never the real issue. Fedhii challenges the idea that money is automatically evil by pointing to Abraham and David—men who had wealth yet still walked with God. The real problem is the love of money and the ambition, attachment, and identity that can become wrapped around it.
Throughout the conversation, we talk about how wealth is only one example of the many things that can slowly take the place of Jesus in our hearts. Fedhii makes the bold statement that Jesus and ambition cannot coexist. We discuss the importance of guarding your heart because the very thing God once gave you as a gift—a calling, platform, dream, talent, or success—can eventually become an idol if it is exalted above Him. This episode is a challenging and honest conversation about surrender, lordship, identity, and what it truly means to follow Jesus when He asks for everything.

The Journey of Belonging with Donta Nelson

In the final episode of Biiftuu’s solo series (for now), we sit with Donta Nelson — a creative, pastor, and leader at Bethel Church — for an honest conversation about belonging, healing, and obedience. Donta vulnerably shares his journey of moving beyond triggers, numbness, and survival mode, and how God slowly taught him what it means to truly belong in Him.
What started as simple obedience led Donta into places he never imagined — including serving as a pastor at Bethel for the last 10 years. In this episode, we talk about the painful yet beautiful process of surrender, the ways God meets us in hidden seasons, and how dying to ourselves often becomes the doorway into the life God has always intended for us.

Costly Obedience with Barkot Surafel

In the next part of Biiftuu’s solo series, we sit down with one of her closest friends, Barkot Surafel, to talk about what it means to walk in “Costly Obedience” to God. As the associate youth pastor and creative director at Bethel Church, Barkot vulnerably shares about one of the hardest seasons of her life — a season where God asked her to stay in Redding, away from her friends, family, and community, and trust Him to open a door in His timing.
What followed was a two-year season of dying — where life on the other side of obedience looked nothing like she expected. In the waiting, Barkot had to confront false beliefs, insecurities, disappointment, and the painful process of surrender. But in the midst of the heartbreak, she also discovered that the most fruitful seasons are often born in hidden obedience.
In this episode, we talk about the cost of following Jesus, the tension of trusting God when promises feel delayed, and the beauty of discovering that Jesus Himself is the reward. Barkot reflects on how this season deepened her understanding of the worthiness of Christ and taught her that if she has Jesus, she truly has everything. Even after the pain, tears, and stretching of costly obedience, she can now look back and confidently say: it is always worth it.

Walking With God Through Heavy Seasons with Rory Helart

In this next episode of Biiftuu’s Solo Series, we sit down with Rory Helart—the Director of Young Saints, the youth ministry of Bethel Church—a leader and pastor whose life reflects a deep, lived encounter with God, and someone we honor deeply for the way he walks with Jesus. Rory opens up about a heavy season, sharing with raw honesty the tension between leaning into God through pain or turning away and deconstructing when things don’t make sense. Through the language of marriage, he paints a sobering picture of how easily we can become unfaithful in our relationship with God when following Him gets hard, yet reminds us that true faith is forged when we choose to remain in the heartache. He unpacks the dismantling of a subtle but damaging belief—that God’s goodness is earned by our behavior—and wrestles with what it looks like to trust Him when suffering comes without explanation, especially as loved ones face deep health struggles. This conversation is a powerful invitation to stay, to trust, and to remain faithful even when the cost feels high.

Comparison & Contentment with Chantelle Nelson

In this first installment of Biiftuu’s Solo Series—a four-part journey featuring conversations with trusted mentors, pastors, and close friends—we sit down with Chantelle Nelson for an honest and deeply personal conversation on comparison and contentment.
Chantelle opens up about her own struggle with comparison within her marriage, vulnerably sharing the tension she felt watching her husband step into opportunities that once felt like her dreams. She doesn’t shy away from the “ugly” parts—revealing how comparison exposed deeper issues in her heart and challenged her understanding of identity, purpose, and calling.
Together, we explore what it means to embrace the seemingly “unflashy” seasons of life. Chantelle reflects on her journey of becoming content in motherhood and in the hidden places God had her, learning to release resentment and instead receive that season as intentional and necessary. What once would have defined her—platform, visibility, and outward success—no longer holds the same weight. Now, when opportunities that feel like dreams come, they’re not the source of fulfillment, but simply an addition to an already anchored life.
This episode is a powerful reminder that the quiet seasons often shape us the most—and that true contentment is found not in chasing what others have, but in trusting God with exactly where you are.